Entering the Beyond

In these times of transformation one is discovering more and more of what they are… almost like remembering moments of their childhood, except that this memory goes far beyond one human life.
Many incarnations show up, of this life and of others, in human form and non-human form, in earthly realms and non-earthly realms. First a huge revelation and happiness goes through this understanding, that there ARE answers to the questions of what is ‘before’ and ‘after’ we die and to why we are here. In this moment we often feel very close to god. It is then though, that the journey only begins. We have given our selfs layers of protection that allow us to reveal the truth one step at a time. Sometimes those single steps feel like being close to ‘going crazy’, so gently gently the truth is shown.
In this process we do have to realise that love flows through everything. Even in duality. It doesn’t mean that there is no evil. It is a matter of perception. By not looking into your own shadow, thinking that there is only love and light, you will not be able to transform and the darkness will grow in the spot of your blind eye. There is no need to fear. Just allowing everything to be seen and felt and looking into all dimensions of your being out of your heart space, not your mind. In trust and self care.

Find the other ones around you that can hold the space for your authentic self in its revelation. Times can get tough when we are alone. We don’t need to be. We actually never are. To feel al-one is the moment where we can realise that we are all-one. Look around you and feel who means it well with you and together allow yourselves to transform.

With all the ‘great’ things you are discovering of your self and all the ‘bad’, remember that Karma is self chosen. We decide to come back so we can bring in order what we might have done wrong so that we can fully be in service of the highest good of all. It is a process of transcendence, also with the ancestral line and soul journey, we can heal it all from here and now. It doesn’t need another million lifetimes. It is a choice.
There may have been moments where we let ourselves down and disconnected from the source of love as we lost trust in it’s power. This might have happened when whole tribes were wiped out or full species disappeared which we were part of. Let us not judge these happenings as we do not see the whole picture just yet.

It is one way to observe life from beyond the mental and beyond the emotional layer. Being embodied now gives us the task and challenge to get to this beyond by transforming these two layers that keep us in the illusion of reality as we experience it.

This life is not the only one where we grow out of the space-time-reality. To break free let us do the steps one at a time. Whatever comes up in our field is serving us. Transformation happens in our whole being simultaneously. This incarnation is like one cell from which we reach the rest of what we are. The rest of our being.

This moment of being, out of thoughts and in the now, is the place where we can access everything without needing to go anywhere. We don’t need to understand it with our mind as the mind is the place of limitation. Always give space to the unknown, the not-knowing, as there you find the expansion of all there is.

In this hugeness is stillness. And here, that part of you that you can not name or describe, that part that exists beyond understanding, presents itself to you. When awareness enters these realms, the self recognises itself.

Blessings,

Lena

 

 

Ein Aufruf an die Gerechtigkeit in unserem Herzen.

Es ist nun über ein Jahr her, dass ich die Schattenseite der Geisteswelt erleben ‘durfte’. Die Seite, die nicht auf Heilung ausgerichtet ist. Die Seite auf der der ‘Heiler’ immer noch aus der Horizontalen seine Energie zu schöpfen scheint und nicht aus eigener Quelle. Bei manchen passiert es bewusst und bei anderen unbewusst.

Die Thematiken der ‘1000 Worte’ können einen ganz schön durcheinander bringen, wenn man versucht es mit dem Verstand zu erfassen. Da kommen Konzepte wie Karma, Besessenheit, Schwarze Magie und Seelenlektionen in den Kopf und ins Gespräch. Freunde werden angezweifelt, jeder kreiert seine eigene Wahrheit. Jeder glaubt, was er glauben möchte und wie es ihm/ihr am besten ins Leben passt.

Spiritualität kann so befreiend sein, uns die Welten eröffnen und uns zu neuen Horizonten führen. Dinge die im ‘beyond’ liegen, also vor und nach der Geburt sowie jenseits der 3-Dimensionalität erschließen sich uns auf einmal und wir ‘erwachen’. Nun können wir uns alles, jenseits des Mensch-Seins, erklären. Wunderbar.

Und dann kommt auf unserer Heilreise, in der wir alte Traumata von uns und unseren Ahnen erlösen möchten auf einmal Missbrauch ins Spiel. Man hört Berichte über Lehrer und Schamanen, die während der Retreats Frauen sexuell nötigen und unser Konzept von ‘Heiler = heilig’ wird komplett zerstört. Bzw. passiert so etwas ja nur in der Ferne und nicht direkt UNS SELBST oder UNSEREN Freunden. Und wenn es doch unmittelbar unter uns geschieht, scheint es so schwer zu sein, es zu sehen und zu akzeptieren, dass es dann einfach nicht wahr sein kann.

Erlauben wir uns in der Situation von Missbrauch die Bezeichnungen ‘Täter’ und ‘Opfer’ zu verwenden. Das Opfer hat sich spirituell gesehen also ausgesucht den Missbrauch zu erfahren, weil es das Thema Missbrauch in sich trägt. Es soll hier seine Lektion lernen. Zusätzlich gab es sicherlich auch noch eine karmische Verbindung, die hier zu Tage kam. Ok.
Täter: Was ist seine Lektion? Oder ist seine Aufgabe lediglich ‘den Bösen’ zu spielen und damit ist alles entschuldigt und auch gerechtfertigt? Nichts braucht sich ändern und wir sehen zu, wie gut er seine Rolle weiter spielt?

Sind wir nicht mittlerweile an dem Punkt angelangt unsere Spiritualität zurück zu unserem Herzen zu bringen und in Nächstenliebe und mit Fürsorge zu handeln? Geht es jemandem schlecht in unserem Umfeld, ist dann nicht Freundlichkeit und Güte gefragt? Sind wir nicht soweit gekommen, um unterscheiden zu können, was wir leben wollen und wie? Sollten wir nicht beginnen, aus den Strukturen der Vergangenheit auszubrechen, sodass Ungerechtigkeiten aufgedeckt und klargestellt werden können? Sollten wir denen nicht zeigen, die Gewalt und Unmut kreieren, dass sie sich Fehlverhalten?
Wenn ein Kind ein anderes schlägt, erklären wir ihm, dass es nicht richtig ist und wie es sich besser in einer Situation der Wut und des Ärgers verhalten kann. Wir sagen nicht dem geschlagenen Kind, dass es sich diese Situation selbst ausgesucht hat. Wir trösten es. Wir sind für beide Kinder da, ohne Urteil und doch zeigen wir, was richtig ist und was falsch in dieser dualen Welt, in der wir uns bewegen.
Haben wir also in unserem Freundeskreis oder entfernten Freundeskreis ein Missbrauchsthema. Wie verhalten wir uns?

In Indien wird die vergewaltigte Frau angeklagt und für die Vergewaltigung schuldig gesprochen. In unserem kollektiven Bewusstsein steckt noch so viel Ungerechtigkeit und ich möchte uns alle ermuntern und bitten, unser Verhalten genau zu überprüfen und in der Welt, in der wir uns gerade auf diesem Planeten befinden, zu Frieden und Gerechtigkeit beizutragen. Erinnern wir uns an unsere Herzensgüte und erlauben wir uns Recht von Unrecht zu unterscheiden und demnach zu handeln. Unterstützen wir das Gute in Gedanken und auch in Taten. Erlauben wir Integrität durch uns zu wirken und auch Zeichen zu setzen. Wo stecken wir unsere Energie hinein, auch durch Anwesenheit und Geld? Wer befindet sich in unserem unmittelbaren Feld. Welche Energien tragen die Menschen um uns herum. Finden wir Worte und Taten der Liebe oder der Gehässigkeit wenn wir uns umschauen?
Achten wir auf die Menschen um uns herum und seien wir bewusst mit unserer eigenen Schöpfung durch Gedanken.
Ich beziehe diese Worte nicht nur auf den sexuellen Missbrauch von Frauen sondern auf Machtmissbrauch im Allgemeinen. Wir sind alle mächtige Wesen. Jeder von uns kreiert und gemeinsam sind wir in einer Co-Kreation. Was ist unser Beitrag?

Namaste und ganz viel Liebe,
Lena

Quick message from the jungle…

Ups and downs are part of life and they feel bigger when you can’t distract yourself like you do in the city. Everything is under a magnifying glass and I become the observer of myself. This happens to an extend, that I said to someone the other day that we receive love and gratitude within ourselves… to give to ourselves and to others. Therefore I’m not identifying with that bit of myself where those feelings arise. Of course this is all work in progress but this was new. I did have started letting go of identifying with my thoughts and then with my emotions as well… and now I realised how I could not identify with where the feelings come from. I know it is all part of ‘me/Lena’. But at the same time it is not. It’s only borrowed like the body is. It is only streaming through… creating me in this life. It’s the expression of my unique spirit. But it is not me. Do you know what I mean? This is where I become you and you become me. The collective us, expressing ourselves in different forms and colours. Can you sense ‘my’ energy running through you in words and expressions and action at times as much as I can sense it with you? When I say things, who is speaking? It maybe my father or my mother speaking through me or one of you guys. We are existing within each other… we are just not always aware of it. Same with the foods we eat. Which food spirit has been with you since the early days? An apple or a carrot maybe? Have you realised that each time you bite into an apple, that you carry all the memory of each time you have done it in the past with all the different kinds of apple? Connected to it are all the memories around that moment. The apple spirit itself has lots to teach. The way the plant grows in all those countries in suuuuch looong time. Energetically it also carries the information of each one of us biting into it. So if you can try new food/fruit, do it. It is a huge download of information coming with it. And we share more and more energy, the more spirits we share that run through us. With Shamans for example or the mother medicine itself… you may have experienced it yourself… you can pick out people from the mass if they carry that energy within them as you share that frequency and it often brings you together and makes you recognise each other.

It’s a good time it feels to find your tribe and recognise each other for who we really are. So many lifetimes we have spent together, that it doesn’t matter so much how many years we actually have shared in this one so far. Let’s bring it all into perspective and trust each other and meet each other with open hearts and arms. Let our souls reunite in the physical form so we can give each other strength and help us remember what we came here to do.

Namaste brothers and sisters and mothers and fathers and lovers and teachers and children and students.

Lena x

Time and eternity

It is time again. Another year has passed. A moment to write these words and a moment just before 2015 arrives. Time, something that we humans have created so we wouldn’t feel lost in eternity.
This year I have been so happy, thankful and blissful, I couldn’t have imagined to ever be feeling this way. I also have never worked on and with myself so intensely before in this life. It was a constant process of letting go, accepting and forgiving. I had to overcome so much doubt and fear on a very foggy path where trust and love were my only inner guidance. I felt like a seed that had been planted in the ground and that had to work its way out of the soil and into the light.

I got to widen my consciousness to new dimensions, which before I could not have imagined to exist. I am very happy that some of you, my dear friends have accompanied me along this process of transformation even with your silent support. I am also appreciating those of you that seemingly have left our shared path in this human form. I know that deep within we will always be connected and I truly honour and love you just as much. I want to give thanks to those of you, that are around me and have welcomed me in these new spheres. You have been guiding lights for me even though your path might seem just as dark as mine sometimes. It’s not a scary darkness. It is just the tunnel that leads us back to source. And that’s where light always exists. Enlightenment. And it’s a matter of remembering that we are always connected with it. A human life is like being in that tunnel. It may make us feel disconnected but every now and then the walls crumble and we get a sense of who we really are. Therefore the light is not just at the end of the tunnel, where we may or may not get to when we die. It is beyond the walls of our limited thinking. What we perceive as reality is only what we believe is true. And the time has come for this belief system to fall apart so that we can allow our’selves’ to perceive reality beyond our self-created limitations. It starts with each one as individuals and once the critical mass is reached the rest will follow.
I am truly grateful for the plant teachers to reach out to us humans and help us remember what we came here to do/be as well as guiding us passed the landscapes of our little minds.

What I have learned is that we can allow ourselves to be different from one moment to the next. We can allow the people around us to have changed each time we see them. We can release the old and embrace the new. We can become the observer of our thoughts and actions. And we can always let love guide us.

After not knowing what was going on the first half of this year, life slowly started to show me the changes on the outside. I got to travel more which I always wanted to do. I did a Raja Yoga Teacher Training and Hypnotherapy course in Thailand and went to India to teach yoga at a wonderful retreat in Ganeshpuri. The black and white imagination that I had of India has now been coloured in and I have started to get a glimpse of what it means to meet someone that is said to be enlightened. I got to strongly connect to Nityananda who apparently was born enlightened and died in the 60’s after healing and teaching people in the most amazing ways. My path has brought me in touch with a wonderful Kundalini teacher who initiated me into Shaktipat – a practice to awaken ones Kundalini energy – that is in the lineage of Nityananda. I also got to be in the presence of someone who had just broken silence after 12 years, and I got to sit with Jangli Das in Shiridi who has been teaching me without needing any words. This is to only mention a few moments that really impressed me.

Young Nityananda

Jangli Das

The next amazing things for me is the journey to South Africa in February where I’m participating in a transformational plant medicine retreat with my shaman teacher and some very very beautiful souls that I got to meet this year. After that I go back to Peru for 3 month to volunteer in a healing center in the jungle called Temple of the way of light. I went there briefly last year and it has been coming up again and again and again until I decided to go there. Whatever it is I need to pick up there I will see.

For now I am closing this year with a heart full of love and an open mind full of curiosity. I understand that this healing path is not just my own. It is the healing path for all of us. I have started giving Reiki and Hypnotherapy and teaching yoga. May the next year guide me further into whatever I came here to do. Thank you for being with me.

Namaste

Chandra Devi

Don’t be a raft. Become the river.

Music: Rest In Natural Great Peace -~- Nyoshul Khenpo Rinpoche.

Friends, we are allowed to just be. We can just be without doing anything and let our mind rest and settle in this. It might not be all clear to us yet but while sitting in deepest meditation the Buddha is the most powerful. That’s when things clear on an energetic level. Some of you might have noticed that before a meditation your mind often feels overloaded with anxiety and worry about your self in relation to the world. This anxiety disappears within meditation. And meditation can also mean to sit alone in nature or quietly just somewhere. To allow yourself that time will give you the chance to find the seed of your worries and to realise how small they actually are.

One thought might be taking over your complete day and occupy your life. It’s as if someone has switched on a blue light and all you see is blue. Wherever you look. And by sitting with this and not trying to fight it or run away from it you give yourself the chance to realise that it is not your core reality. You can find the truth behind it and discover the switch and once this has happened you are able to turn it off. This is when you find the seed of your misery called a ‘Sankara’. Observe it! Don’t react to it. Sit still and let it come to the surface. Our lives are filled with Sankaras from this life and from past lives and from our ancestor lines and from the issues of the world that we carry on our shoulders. Each moment you clear something inside you, you also clear it for many others. This is the most constructive work you can do for your self, humanity and the world itself.

By clearing yourself from your shadows that surround your light you are able to feel better and shine brighter. The result of this is that how you think is different and therefore what you do and how you are changes. You become more pure and compassionate and it will affect everyone who gets in touch with you. Once people start walking on that path their whole lives may change as their inside has started to heal and to evolve.
In this time, as you might have noticed, new jobs appear. More and more of us realize that a time of healing and sustainability has begun. We have to stop acting as part of this madness of the ego world. And I don’t mean that we have to ignore that we have an ego. We can take reality as it is. To wake up doesn’t mean to be enlightened but it is a beginning of a major shift.

Open your hearts. Allow the world to be peaceful and friendly by becoming peaceful and friendly yourself. Everything that follows from here will be the opportunity for you to do what is really needed in this world. You no longer have to do anything or act a certain way to keep yourself busy to feel worthy or to ‘make a living’. You actually start living. You are not a raft. You become the river. Don’t try to hold on to the shore. There is no shore.

I love you.

Lena xx

Human Conciousness – A Little Marble On The Horizon.

Life is nothing but a story. It’s a waste of time to take it seriously. What you think is important, often doesn’t even matter. Zoom out of your story, see your birth and death of this life and then the generations before or after you… and all their stories. And humankind. It’s an experience and not more. So what to do when all seems wrong and things happen that you judge as sad or unfair? Just start seeing each person in your life as a gift and notice that they came along many times before and that your lesson is to love and to be kind to everyone no matter how they behave. This might involve that you tell them what you do not like or won’t accept or you might even peacefully walk away. All this can be done in a loving way. Be aware that everyone is carrying their own burden. Also you don’t know what you might have done to them in previous lives. We might have forgotten the stories but they are deeply ingrained in us.

We are so much bigger than our human body could show. Everything is connected in the broader picture . Hatred is just an illusion. It is love covered in emotion. Be aware that you are responsible for your own action. You can handle a situation in all possible ways. Make a choice that involves your heart. Step away from thoughts even though they seem to dominate your life most of the time – they are just like all the other senses. You are not free as long as you don’t realise that each feeling is coming from your “self” and is not to be blamed on the outside. Whatever you don’t resolve in this life you carry into your next. There is no such thing as time. We just make up the future and past as thoughts in our heads for a safety that is pure illusion. It can be so hard to let go of that. What is left when you do? What is left when you no longer identify with the things you think you are? Like your name, the place you were born or the clothes you wear. What do people see ‘of’ you when you don’t say what you do. What would it be like to have a society where we are finding back to the importance of what we are and not what we do. A human being. A pure and wonderful soul dressed with a body. And this amazing vibration that we are is so fragile in its humanness. Every negative thought is felt. This involves your responsibility. What people say to you or do to you will not harm you unless you believe them. See the “negative stuff” in your life as a presentation of what you can work on next. Where are you damaging yourself by thinking or worrying? Feel the feelings and go within to see where they are originated. Rewrite your DNA. Live through your Sankaras and let go of what doesn’t serve you.
Your love is the strongest power. It’s the only thing we truly share, the only thing we truly are. The rest is story, an illusion. Rise above the bullshit that you have been telling yourself. You ARE worthy. You ARE unique. You ARE loved. Always. Don’t try to be someone else because you are perfect as YOU.

Spirit Bird – Xavier Rudd

Wake up and trust in life

Life has so much to offer. Why is everyone wasting it by hanging in their jobs for 8hours or longer. Taking the tube in London yesterday made me aware of this craziness that we live in. I don’t mean that people shouldn’t work. Especially the rare ones that have found a job that makes them happy (and not just for egoic reasons of self reputation and the need of acknowledgement). We are all perfect the way we are when we are born. So why do we waste our lifetime thinking we are not good enough, not fast enough and are paranoid about the fact that we can always do better. I rarely see anyone smiling in the streets. There is hardly any appreciation in the world for life itself. When I look in people’s faces I often see blank space… as if they have drifted off into their “thought based beingness” that takes them away from all there ever is – the present moment. This is where peace lies and happiness and love.

The collective consciousness seems to think that life is hard and I sense that there is an addictiveness for drama at all times that is so unnecessary.
Is it really true that in the western world people are in debt most of their lives to build a house? To have a place to live and food to eat? Really? The addiction of accumulating numbers on an account, a monetary system that is based on the biggest lie (watch this) and that keeps everyone in a state of fear… Why do we accept this?
The universe is actually not our enemy. It is our lover. Treat it with respect and love and kindness. Don’t hurt yourself with negative thoughts about yourself or others. The time has come to heal yourself. To take each situation in life as a lesson for yourself. To learn, to grow, to evolve. Don’t complain about people that push your buttons, be thankful towards them as they have become your teachers. Look inside yourself and see what it is in you that is actually bothered by the action or words of others. Go back to the childhood memory that you have forgotten about by feeling the feeling. Feelings are there for you to feel them. That’s how you actually let go of them. There is no need to push them away, to ignore them or to distract yourself from them. You will soon realise that it is the thought that is causing the problems. When you get right into it you realise which thought is causing the sadness/depression/negativity and in that moment the bubble will burst. You can choose not to believe your thoughts. And mind you it is usually coming down to a lack of self love and self worthiness or disrespect towards your own self. Life is not about changing other people. You might have the greatest ideas about how other people can get their lives together. What they should or shouldn’t do. Be aware that you can only ever change yourself. And with that change, the world around you will change. Changing your thoughts will change the way you feel and that will change the way you act and that will change your world. By becoming a kind loving person, the world will reflect exactly that right back at you. So whenever you say someone is unfair towards you, ask yourself where in life YOU are unfair to others OR to yourself. Make sure to always keep in mind that you are not responsible for other people’s thoughts. Don’t act a certain way to make other people think a certain way about you. The truer you get about your own self the more honest people will enter your life. Let go of past relationships where people have mistreated you. Let them go with love. Do it out of self love and self respect. You deserve nothing but the purest hearts around you. I am with you when you need me. And always remember to trust in life!

This shall be it for now.

Much love and blessings to you my dear friend,

 

The part of me that is also the part of you.

Namaste

 

 

„In the name of love“

It is quite crazy what we are able to do or to accept “in the name of love”. Have you ever wondered if you are in the right relationship or friendship? Does it feel difficult to find the answer? Is life just too complex to know for sure? Be aware that the knowledge is there and often it is you who actually just don’t want to hear it. You might find a little bit of a delay but the truth always comes with the question. If you are confused and life seems blurry it is a sign to take time for yourself to find clarity within.

If you keep pretending that everything is always great in your life, you are heading into more trouble. I am not saying that it is the aim to let your thoughts dwell in old issues or fear or worry. Not at all. A healthy acceptance of life with ALL its ups and downs will keep you happy and balanced. FEEL the emotions as they come along, as that is the only way for them to leave you completely. If one day you are sad or anxious, feel it. Sit with it and ask yourself “Why do I feel that way?”. Only then you realise what is really happening in your world. So many humans seem to be happy and fulfilled and keep themselves busy enough to believe they are. I’d like to recommend you to give yourself enough quiet time so you can acknowledge what you actually feel inside you heart.

It is a choice to make. And it takes courage. We are on a journey and we can jump from one goal to the next without even realising what surrounds us along the way… as long as we reach the destination. If that is the case, be aware that you often miss the beauty of the people that come passed or the magic of the sun that sets every night. The other choice would be to live for the living itself and to do for the doing no matter what comes out of it. With each step be fully aware of yourself and your surrounding and everything will make sense.

It took me a long time to understand this and I’m surely not at the end of this amazing learning process but I am truly happy to have started this journey and to look around me and feel the presence of my friends and family and to be aware of the little birds that fly along my way and the flowers that bloom everywhere I go. There is so much gratitude within me.
Another part of this process that might be judged as negative if you allow judgement in your life are moments where you lay awake at night. It didn’t happen to me very often but on one occasion I had an hour of old horror movies passing my eyes rapidly with Freddy Kruger singing in my ear after a dream of being followed and threatened to get killed. When these things happen, I just watch them go through me and out of me and let them pass.

Being in the moment will give you the power to face all the issues from your past that you haven’t dealt with already. This can feel uncomfortable and even scary. Anyways, by allowing them to come up you can actually let them go and this will set you free. If you don’t feel free it is NEVER someone else who keeps you away from it but yourself. No one is to be blamed for anything that has happened to you. You yourself are responsible for the things that are happening to you or at least for the way you react to them. Of course there are certain happenings like accidents or dis-eases that seem unfair. Take life itself as a lesson and the people you meet as mirrors that teach you.

Coming back to the start now. Let love and kindness rule your life and you will soon understand what and who belongs to you. The biggest point to learn is to understand that you need to love and respect yourself for others to love and respect you. When you are totally accepting of yourself with all the things you may have done wrong you have come far. It is then also that you realise who is behaving in an unkind manner towards you. A behaviour of friends or family which you might not have been aware of before. Forgive yourself and forgive others for the things that might have caused harm. Know that everyone is doing the best they can from the knowledge they have at any given time. In this process you will soon see who really is your friend and whether your partner is the right one to be with. There will be no doubt as there is no doubt in love. Only when you live on an ego/thought level things get messy and confusing. Step away from those that treat you unkind with the awareness that they don’t know it any better. Embrace those that love you. Be open for change. Always.

Love Lena x

The Wakeful Mind

While on tour my life contains hotels, venues, trains, a bus and this time the lovely guys of Rhythm Of The Dance. I always like to be on the road for work. A constant change of scenery – beautiful! Some of you might know that it can be quite draining to spend all day in front of a screen in the same room. I did learn in my shamanic course, that no room actually stays the same. This is an expansion of the realisation that future and past don’t exist. They are only thoughts in our mind and we all have a different memory of it even though we might have shared the same moments. Now, with places it is quite the same. As soon as you leave one room it then exists in your mind only…  this leads to the understanding that we create EVERYTHING that surrounds us and all that is happening to us. I know these thoughts can feel like acrobatics of the mind but the more we practise, the clearer it gets.

Rhythm Of The Dance

The world is full of wonders and I was lucky enough to have experienced certain moments in January that weren’t possible in my “old” mindset. That’s when I realised how we can actually understand the world and find ALL the answers we want if we open up and allow ourselves to do so. I decided last year that I want to release everything I’ve learned to make space for new ideas and to allow the truth to unfold. This led to the result that all goes but truth stays – even if you let go of it. To be concrete, in my shamanic course one exercise was to write down everything I believe, everything I wish for and everything I want to let go of.  It took a few days and once I had it all on paper, reading through it again sounded really great. I mean, I wrote down the information I gained all my life, right!  I then burned the lists and released all that was written on them.  See, I’m telling you this because I think that this is such an amazing tool and it leads to the big understanding of what we think reality is and what it can be and that we all have our own version of it. We might believe that we know what is true. I think, that unless we let go of it, we don’t know if our truth, our reality is actually true. I have started a group on FB called “The Wakeful Mind” and I would like to invite you to it. I see each and every one of us as teachers and students and we can learn so much from each other. I have spoken to a few of you in the last few months and it is amazing what we already know and what we have experienced. If you feel like there is more to the world and you’d like to expand your consciousness then please let me know and I’ll add you. I see it as a great tool to connect with everyone and be in exchange, no matter where on earth we live right now.

TheMagicWorld

I decided not to ride on the train of fear anymore and rather on the horse of wisdom. We can change the world once we change ourselves. Let’s do this together.  We have each other, even though we have to take our own steps.

I do think that us human beings are evolving all the time and we are going through some major changes at the moment where a network of like-minded people can be a great support.  This is one opportunity to start changing your lives. What we share is what we think is important to everyone else also. Please feel free to invite other people that might want to join too.

I realised that some of us don’t quite know what work they are going to do this year and at the same time they wonder what their task in life is. I came to understand that we might not be quite ready yet to fully know what we are here to do. I recommend everyone to find your creative outlet and I can assure you that it will lead you to the way of all the answers. With love, compassion and light we can achieve everything that we want to, so we can regain our powers, reconnect with the source of our souls and heal and uplift the world.

May love, magic and music be with you all.

Lena xx

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The spirit of Ayahuasca: a creative guide, a healer, a moral teacher

Camille Flammarion

I’m not quite sure if I’m ready but not knowing if I will ever be or what that means to be ready I decided to just sit down and try to explain what happened in Peru and how life is different now. I mean we all know that no one can step into the same river twice. We all understand the construction of a body and the universe in a scientific matter by now… I found this quote online which goes along those lines:

“Before you judge others or claim any absolute truth, consider that you can see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum and hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum. As you read this, you are traveling at 220 kilometres per second across the galaxy. 90% of the cells in your body carry their own microbial DNA and are not “you”. The atoms in your body are 99.9999999999999999% empty space and none of them are the ones you were born with, but they all originated in the belly of a star. Human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less than the common potato. The existence of the rainbow depends on the conical photoreceptors in your eyes; to animals without cones, the rainbow does not exist. So you don’t just look at a rainbow, you create it. This is pretty amazing, especially considering that all the beautiful colours you see represent less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum.”

… our senses therefore leave us with such a little knowledge of what “reality “ is.

Cameron Gray

I had moments in life where I was wondering about coincidences when running into friends in random places of the world or thinking about people just shortly before they called etc etc. It now all makes sense. I did have an awakening of some kind and during my second Aya session I saw a butterfly enfolding in a multidimensional space. In the third session it was like I was actually waking up in that golden, colourful, fractal space and it felt like I was breathing and feeling and seeing and hearing for the first time in my life. This sounds all a bit crazy and it is easy to judge negatively but I don’t really mind because what happened is that the world finally makes sense to me. It doesn’t free me from sadness or other emotional reaction but the bigger picture is now much clearer and I finally found proof for the existence of those other spheres or places or dimensions by experiencing them and being them in some strange way. Ha ha I had a real “relief laughing moment” during ceremony that I shared with some beautiful people who moved closer to me and together we had this beautiful happy existence in that moment where negativity or sadness was not existent. Life is pure joy and it is in our human thoughts where we create all the misery. In the spirit world we are ALL connected and just good together and we might even have shared several other lives before. The feeling of meeting someone and thinking you have always known each other – it is not by chance. What I learned has changed my attitude towards strangers too as there are no strangers. We are made of the same stuff and share the same past. And in a humanly/worldly matter maybe only parts of the past.

Here is a really good description by Graham Hancock about what Ayahuasca is and how it can heal people: The War oc Conciousness – Graham Hancock

I feel like this has only been the beginning of something larger that I can’t fully grasp yet. In moments it felt like I went through a very colourful, fractal wormhole and ended up in a space that was not of this world. It was like coming home and it felt like I was there before I was born… very very beautiful. Also I came to spheres where all the ancient knowledge is saved. The place where ideas or songs or books come from – it exists and we have access to it even though we usually only have an understanding of receiving from it and not actually entering it – if you know what I mean.

Anderson Debernardi

I think I might confuse some of you. Don’t worry, I’m all clear and good. I am just really happy to have found so many answers that I was longing for all my life. It might push you away or interest you. Let me know if you’d like to know more about it all. I could also talk about the experience of the other guys that I was with as they had their own really fantastic journeys but that would go too far in this little blog of mine.

I am adding a few artworks in here so you get a visual idea of what actually happened. It is amazing that some people, through their art, are able to make accessible to you what me and others have experienced!!!

Much love guys,

Lena x

P.S. The rest of Peru was also truly amazing but that I might put in the next blog entry.